I am not sure why I want to share my pastel “Bell Pepper with Scar” on my first post of 2012. I wanted something visual for sure as I have not posted an image for months. But it also has to do with the oddness of the picture–a scar on a bell pepper! A strange harmony draws me to this piece, what with the pepper slanting one way and the scar the opposite.
I completed the pastel years ago at a time when I was writing the final chapters of my memoir manuscript about my infant surgery. One day, while harvesting peppers from my garden, the image came to me. At the time, I thought the pastel communicated that as a baby, my body was a perfect vegetable made imperfect by the scar. But the picture won’t let me settle for this interpretation.
Be whimsical about the scar, it seems to suggest. Maybe even dance with it. Realize it’s part of the perfection. The scar creates the balance with the pepper, for how can a scar that represents my life being saved be imperfect or wrong? A body with such a scar can only be right. Perhaps “Bell Pepper and Scar” would better name the composition or “Scar with Bell Pepper.” How about “The Beauty of What Is.”