Category Archives: Writing

Saved by a Spider: Connection is Key

Spider with Suicide             A long-legged spider hung above where I, twenty-one, lay on an attic cot in the abandoned house I’d climbed into—   the place I swallowed all those pills but woke up—frightened, disappointed, baffled really.   Now what?   I touched the cool brick next to me,…

In Retrospect: The Meaning of an Early Image

As the end of 2015 approaches, I am pondering a poem I wrote over a decade ago about my reason for writing Autobiography of a Sea Creature, Coming Home to My Body after Infant Surgery, my memoir manuscript for which I am seeking a publisher. The poem is entitled “The Calling”: Accept thy shadow as…

Finding a Publisher: Sea Creature on the Move

For the past several months, I’ve been working with Robin Martin of Two Songbirds Press on editing my manuscript The Autobiography of a Sea Creature: Coming Home to my Body after Infant Surgery. I’ve been blessed with a partner who helped me every step of the way move this story into a new and exciting format and a…

Do You Think You are Crazy?

Think again– maybe you had surgery without anesthesia as a baby. Do you wonder why it’s hard to be intimate with someone, hypervigilance charging your cells? Maybe you had surgery without anesthesia as a baby. Do you wonder why you don’t know whether to live or die– Maybe you had infant surgery without anesthesia. Do…

Rewriting The Autobiography of a Sea Creature, a story of infant surgery

As you can see, I’m slowing down on posting. For the past several years, I’ve posted weekly. Now though I’m focusing on rewriting and editing my memoir manuscript about infant surgery, The Autobiography of a Sea Creature. I’ve hired a wonderful editor to help me and it makes all the difference. The surgery I had…

ReStory Notes: Some Powerful Questions & Answers

The ReStory Your Life – Freedom After Trauma Meetup that I led may be over, but the notes I made and the lessons I planned are still relevant. I recently reread some of the ideas that I offered in the talk I gave before we shared as a group and wrote. In time, I stopped…

Post-op Orders following Infant Surgery without Anesthesia

The following was my response to the writing prompt I offered to the ReStory Your Life Meetup group that I used to lead, in which each member had PTSD. I told the group to write up a recipe for making the type of person each of them had become. Start with a recipe for making the…

The Colors of Success: The Story of a Sacramento Meetup

Time to let go of a Meetup Group I’ve led for the last year-and-a-half called Freedom after Trauma. (Meetup is a network of free classes and meetings that one can sign up for online.) The meeting was an opportunity for folks with post-traumatic stress to ReStory their Lives and find more freedom through associative or free…

Being in the Now: Finding Freedom by Writing about Trauma

Every month, I lead a ReStory Your Life Meetup in the Sacramento area for trauma survivors. Different people come each time.We have been meeting for well over a year, more frequently before I had a teaching job. For a while, a steady group met twice a month at a cafe in Rocklin. Writing is at the…

The Dangers of Being Seen/Unseen

Many people who’ve experienced the trauma of infant surgery or who have post-traumatic stress (PTS) for a number of reasons have issues with visibility. It is dangerous to be seen.  I recently spoke to a survivor of infant pyloric stenosis surgery who told me that one of his biggest issues was the anxiety brought on…