Category Archives: triggers

A Time of Triggers: Finding Freedom after Trauma

If you are like me, with a history of early trauma, then this is indeed a challenging time–at least for many of us living in America. When it became clear that Trump would win the election this past November, I regressed significantly. It was as if I curled up in a ball or dove into a…

EMDR Works!

After my EMDR session last week, I walked through the aisles of Sprouts Farmers Market, feeling super UN-self-conscious! I felt large–large in the sense of being fully present in myself–and free–as in gliding through air, curious at all the wonderful colors and people and sights and sounds. It’s not like I don’t ever experience these…

EMDR on the Horizon: Wish Me Luck!

This coming Friday, I will be doing EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing).* Don’t ask me what it really is–I’ll tell you after my first session. As I understand it though, from reading an interview with the trauma expert Dr. Van der Kolk and hearing people’s reports over the years, it’s a way of desensitizing…

Joyously Living Now: Understanding the Past is Key

Joyously living now depends, in part, on our ability to recognize our triggers, accept them, and let them go so that we can be more fully present in our now. Now is our point of power but often, in order to experience this reality, we must understand the past and the way it has cut into and…

To Thine Own Triggers Be True: The Power of Self-Awareness

I am walking down the fifth-floor hallway of the Superior Court of Sacramento at G and 8th, on jury duty for the fourth day. The tiled floor, black with gray and white flecks, is meticulously cared for and shines with a recent polishing. The round ceiling lights reflect brightly in the black squares below, and I…

Being in the Now: Finding Freedom by Writing about Trauma

Every month, I lead a ReStory Your Life Meetup in the Sacramento area for trauma survivors. Different people come each time.We have been meeting for well over a year, more frequently before I had a teaching job. For a while, a steady group met twice a month at a cafe in Rocklin. Writing is at the…

The Best Medicine on the Planet

The other day in my early morning meditation, I felt a lot of tension in my shoulders, neck, and gut. I often feel this stress when I first sit still and go within, so I calm myself by saying affirmations, such as I am safe or all is well. But an image of a knife…

Life in Traumaland: Working with Triggers

Ah, time for relief from stress and for much-needed exercise–a refreshing dip in my neighbor’s pool. Late afternoon is perfect–a quiet, sunset time with a slight breeze gently swaying the treetops. The water is clear and clean and at first toe-tip feels too cold, but I remember my friend’s words: “The river is 66 degrees…