Category Archives: depression

Images Key to Unlocking Preverbal Trauma

My pastel “Self-Hate,” on display at the Sacramento Poetry Center this month, along with two others of mine and those of eight other artists who also write as part of Jennifer O’Neill Pickering’s Sable & Quill exhibit, is an expression of the feelings I felt about my body and about life in general, especially as…

In Retrospect: The Meaning of an Early Image

As the end of 2015 approaches, I am pondering a poem I wrote over a decade ago about my reason for writing Autobiography of a Sea Creature, Coming Home to My Body after Infant Surgery, my memoir manuscript for which I am seeking a publisher. The poem is entitled “The Calling”: Accept thy shadow as…

The Despair of Yesterday: A Lesson Learned through EMDR

This morning in my early meditation, I checked in with my baby self. She and I have become one lately and just today, I learned why I’ve kept separate from her all these many years. If I accepted the reality of this almost-dead baby into my life–the one that almost died from a condition called…

So what is PTSD anyway?

It’s complex, that’s what. How to boil it down into some simple statements of fact? The symptoms of  post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), which I’ve learned from Dr. Louis Tinnin, Dr. Robert Scaer, and Dr. Judith Herman, are classified in a three-fold way: intrusion, constriction, and hyperarrousal. Here’s my own spin or synthesis of their material….

To Journal–To Save a Life

Journaling saved my life. Throughout the turmoil of my twenties, writing in a journal gave me a safe space to live. In the pages of my notebooks, I drew pictures, raged, played with words, poemed, analyzed and understood myself, and basically figured out how to go on living day-to-day. I taped in images from magazines…

Depression in America: Linked to Unresolved Infant Medical Trauma?

In a recent article  ”Dosing Down” published in O Magazine, writer Robin Rinaldi states, “. . . nearly 23 percent of American women between the ages of 40 and 59 take antidepressants.” That’s a helluva lot of women. According to psychologist Dr. Bob Murray, “recent research has shown that men are actually just as likely to be…

“The Long Life of Early Pain”

I painted this self-portrait when I was 25 years old and very depressed, can you tell? I was so down, lost, and  unaware one drizzly, chilly east bay morning that I left a pillow over the heating duct in the floor after I turned on the heat, which started a fire in my apartment. I…

Out in the Community with ReStory Your Life

I am psyched. I gave my first talk out in the world beyond the classrooms of The College of Alameda and it was thrilling. Eight women from the Women’s Motivational Meetup in Sacramento, hosted by Griffin Toffler, gave me their attention, listened to my lecture, and participated in a writing exercise at the library in…

ReStory Your Life!

Lots of good changes coming to myincision!  By January 2013, this blog will be part of my website ReStory Your Life. This website will not only house my blog but will announce my speaking engagements, workshops, and publications and showcase my poetry, prose and artwork. I am excited to announce my first presentation of 2013,…

What sharp edges know–A Portrait

Here is a portrait of me that I drew May 15, 1976. I had left Synanon, a rehabilitation community, six months earlier and was living in East Oakland, California  with a small group of artists and students. In drawing this image with a magic marker, I was not aware of any issue regarding the trauma…