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EMDR on the Horizon: Wish Me Luck!

This coming Friday, I will be doing EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing).* Don’t ask me what it really is–I’ll tell you after my first session. As I understand it though, from reading an interview with the trauma expert Dr. Van der Kolk and hearing people’s reports over the years, it’s a way of desensitizing Post-traumatic Stress triggers and reintegrating the information into the nervous system; in other words, triggers get defused.

I’ve been interested in this technique for quite a while. A friend of mine, who’d been in a major car accident as a kid, was helped years ago through EMDR; she can now drive on freeways again. Just last month within the span of one week, I received three or four reports from friends and acquaintances about its effectiveness. Ah, a sign!  Coincidentally, my wife dropped the card of a therapist on my desk, whom she thought I’d like. I didn’t need to ask her whether this counselor did EMDR; it seemed I was destined to try it.

What I’m hoping for is a nullification of my many triggers. Bright overhead lights; masked or hooded individuals; pillow cases that split open at the back so that the pillow shows through; any resemblances of the scar on my belly, for example, stitches on baseballs and footballs; the popping of anything, like balloons, a tire, or a bag blown up with air; certain slants of sunlight, on and on. I’ve blogged about these triggers and the ways I’ve coped with them through drawing, writing, affirmations, and meditation, and in fact, I’ve had much success in dealing with them in positive ways. Trouble is, they don’t go away!

For those of you tuning into this blog for the first time, I had a surgery for pyloric stenosis, a stomach blockage, without anesthesia or pain control at one month old and my triggers are connected, not only to my early illness and operation, but to reenactments I’ve suffered over the years due to unresolved early trauma. Could EMDR possibly free me from trigger stimulation?  Could EMDR soothe my nervous system?  Will it be easier for me to fall asleep?  Will I stop gritting my teeth while I sleep?  Will my protective body armor relax?  Here’s hoping.

I don’t think EMDR is an instant fix. It may take several sessions or more, I don’t know. I’m willing to try though. Apparently, no one knows yet exactly how EMDR works, but who cares?  I don’t really know how my brain works, but I use it and am grateful for it. I don’t really know how my computer or car work, but they are important tools in my life. Frankly, I hear often that EMDR works. I’m going for it!

*If you want to know more about EMDR, the book Getting Past Your Past: Take Control of Your Life with Self-help Techniques from EMDR Therapy by Dr. Francine Shapiro might help. I haven’t read it yet, but the author is the creator of this technique.


Thank You, Dr. Louis Tinnin–Pioneer in Treating Infant Trauma

Dr. Louis Watson Tinnin, a man who has been a friend to all those who suffer trauma, especially preverbal infant trauma, died back in February, 2014. I was shocked that I hadn’t heard about his passing until last week and recently had wondered why I hadn’t received posts from his blog for quite some… Continue Reading