Injured this past spring and engaged in rehabilitation over the summer, I had a chance to heal further from an early trauma. As the Cranio-Sacral Therapist worked on my head, he helped ease some of my temporo-mandibular joint (TMJ) pain, which resulted from my infant surgery. I also had the opportunity to work through some of the emotions–feelings of unworthiness and fear–associated with my early surgery. His presence as witness was key. When the release of pain is witnessed by another, a new level of healing takes place .
Does one ever resolve trauma completely? I think not. There’s always another level of resolution. Imagine a spiral staircase. Each time we work through something, we go up several stairs. We arrive on a step directly above one previously stood upon. We have come full circle but are now higher up in space. Awesome, yes?
This phenomenon can make us feel dispirited and frustrated as in we’ll never get it done. On the other hand, we are always in process and that’s the beauty of being human. There’s always more room to grow or heal. When we die, we are unfinished masterpieces. Imperfect perfection. I choose to see myself this way.